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Hey guys!! Everything is going so great!! School is going well, my babe loves me more than words can describe and i got a raise again!!! Oh, music wise...everyone needs to start listening to rave music, cuz i'll be on the scene soon. My friend's stepbrother is a dj and a music producer and wants to hear me on some traks. That will be off the chain. Oh, i went to this bar-b-que and it was at a big mansion...gated..12 rooms...jacuzzi inside...3 kicthens and a music room...man it was crazy!! I guess this is that point in my life where everything is at its peak of success...welll we'll see. So guys keep in touch and i'm only a phone call away.

thanks bec, and i am trying to use those words of wisdom for my comfort, but its almost like a marriage and you find out someone fell out of love and wants a divorce or just a little sepration time..and right after already being apart. It's weighting on my mind, so i guess i gotta go dancing. I miss you bec and if i don't go over there to see david, then i will surely come see you chica! Hey on another note, my phone was ringing off the hook yesterday. It's nice to have those real friends that go out of their way to keep in touch. James d. called and we are still cool after all these years literally, my gurl(P.I.C.) partner in crime...miss ya gurl. and the big shock that was so exciting, Brian Medina, my very first guy friend who i've known long than any guy i know now called me from iraq. Keep him your prayers everyone. ttyl

it has been a long, long time. I guess i just needed to vent. some of you know about my crazy love life. being seperated for 8 months and trying to stay faithful and everything else that comes with time. i am still completely in love with david, but i have also done what i have vowed not to do...be weak to love and put too high of expectations in it. time makes you think and when you love somebody you become almost depndent on them. Now i know i could be with some else but i don't wanna, i can't even picture it. we've been together for a year and almost three months..and still there is everything keeping us from being completely together. Maybe i'm writing this to convince myself to stop falling more in love and to realize there's a time to let go. Or maybe i need to convince myself to not fear the possibilty that everything will work itself out. who knows..everytime i get close, it falls apart, that's probably why i live in san diego where the single life is the only life. aight, later

I know its been a while, but sorry a gurl can't be on the computer all day..that's just sad ad means you have no friends or life what so ever! I hope everyone is doing well. I am ok but in about a week my current boo is gong to go to iraq. i am scared, and i will keep him in my prays...next summer for sur he said he'd go to warped tour with me. I need a friend cuz i am gong to be tripppin' everyday.My best friend has moved to the darkside..EAST COAST, but she'll be back...COME BACK BEC!! Ladies if you got a man and he thinks he can run all over you...kick his a#& to the curb, and don't chase after him, let him chase you. Don't call no matter how much you want to and trust he will wonder what's going on and call you. Never be weak to a man. Take care of yourself cuz guess who he's not worrying about half the time, that's right you. Holla at your gurl later. Oh, one more thing hey rhode island peeps.